That time would be now and I didn’t get over it, I dealt with it a certain way. I am overweight! Since six years I came from normal sized to XXL for shirts. My breasts have grown bigger and I am feeling really fat. I don’t swim in a bikini anymore for decades now, but in a swimming suit. I have avoided physical contact because of this huge transformation. I am single and I am letting myself believe that is for a reason. Not only don’t I have the pleasant personality, but I haven’t got the pleasant personality AND am fat. A loose-loose combination in my opinion. Luckily I don’t suffer from it, I just don’t think about it any longer. In a way, I gave up on myself in this department. I try to look as nice as I can clothing-wise, but I can’t change what’s underneath the clothing. I know I am not alone, millions of (mostly) women suffer from lack of confidence as far as their looks go. There was a time when I took an unhealthy but effective diet for a few months and I lost kilos, but the Jojo-effect was there as soon as I stopped that diet, and I gained more than I lost. I am 10-kilo overweight now and no way can I lose that. I should exercise more, I know that, but it would not be enough to lose the weight, simply because I am of a certain age and the gym is not for me. So I just forgot about my body, simple as that.