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#961436 added July 6, 2020 at 10:34am
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It's June already.
Another hot day of at least 90 farenheit here. I hope I spelled that right. How does that saying go? E before I except....
Anyway I'm in a kind of a slump after a bit of "yes I can handle this attitude". Seems like there's always at least one person ready to shoot me down.
I usually try to consider what someone has said but darn it I wasn't even talking to her. I felt invalidated by her comment.
Sometimes people don't really know what they are talking about and are just WRONG. I bet she has never turned a wrench, changed her car's oil or a headlight, or repacked wheel bearings.
So my choices were--fo I correct her or let it slide because it's not worth bickering over. I'm no expert but I do know some things about cars. That is based on my experiences with my own mostly or what I've seen others have done for a given situation.
As it turned out I basically let it slide, but only after another person who happens to be male validated me. I felt a little bit better but something about that felt wrong.
And now my internet has to be difficult and it has taken way too long to type just a few sentences before it freezes up again.
Anyway several days later someone asks me something which they should have already know for over 40 years. Because its a personal crisis for me I explain as best I can yet get caught up in the angry feelings and express myself explcitly and what does she say but--My god can we talk about something else? Youre so focused on the negtive why don't we talk about God and how things will get much worse before he comes.
And I say. Wow thats really positive isn't it.
Also I'm the kind that if I decide to share something close to my heart I dont expect the other person to try to censor what I'm saying. Especially when they're a doing a horrible job themselves n their personal issues, not that I never tried diversions as in keeping busy, taking meds, or drinking alcohol.
I've never let anything like that take over my life. I was very aware to see hiw self destructive that can be. I know what it feels like to think who the heck cares. I might think well this is just a temporary fix to an ongoing problem but why let things get so bad.
And in some ways yes it did, but not by those things. I lost something more valuable and precious. I do not know how or if others truly get over the loss of something or someone dear to their heart.
It is what it is.
Have a joyful day!
~SilverMoonNoel~ 
Dreams are true while they last, and do we not live in dreams?
~~Alfred Lord Tennyson~
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