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Blogocentric Formulations
Logocentric (adj). Regarding words and language as a fundamental expression of an external reality (especially applied as a negative term to traditional Western thought by postmodernist critics).
Sometimes I just write whatever I feel like. Other times I respond to prompts, many taken from the following places:
 "The Soundtrackers Group" 
"Blogging Circle of Friends "
"Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise"
"JAFBG"
"Take up Your Cross"
Thanks for stopping by! 
February 9, 2019 at 11:43pm February 9, 2019 at 11:43pm
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DAY 3
"One Sweet Day"
by Mariah Carey feat. Boyz II Men
This is only my third entry for Emotionally Raw week here at the Soundtrackers, but I'm gonna bring out the heavy guns. This is probably the single most painful song in my life, one that I literally turn off or skip whenever it plays. Hell, even loading up the video for this challenge and hearing the first few beats of the music was like a knife twisting in my gut.
I spent most of middle school (and high school) crushing on one girl in particular. I was also painfully shy, quite literally a wallflower. I would go to school dances but never detach my back from the wall of the gym. I'd go to pep rallies, but plant my butt in a bleacher seat in the far back corner and watch everyone else participate. Well, a friend of mine thought it would be funny to ask the girl I liked to dance. And yep, it was to this song. He teased me about being too shy to ask her to dance myself and said, "Well if you won't, I will!" And proceeded to do just that. 
Now, the older me can look back on the situation and realize that it was just stupid junior high bullshit. But everybody remembers those formative years of "firsts" in their life and this was my first time being jealous of someone for being more outgoing and courageous than I was at the time... and it would ultimately be the first time that I lost a friend over something. I was just so hurt, so traumatized that I couldn't hang out with this friend anymore. And to this day, even though that was more than twenty years ago, and I haven't spoken to either the girl or the friend in nearly that long, hearing this song will take me right back to that middle school gymnasium and all the swirling pain and emotions that I felt that night.
It's strange how vibrant some memories are. We can have trouble remembering what we had for dinner the night before, or what we did last weekend, but other memories are just as vivid as they were the day we imprinted them in our brains. I have a feeling this song will forever leave me emotionally raw when I hear it.
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Written for "The Soundtrack of Your Life"
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February 9, 2019 at 5:09pm February 9, 2019 at 5:09pm
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DAY 2
"This Is Me"
from The Greatest Showman Soundtrack
It's been a busy week and I have a whole lot of Soundtrackers entries to catch up on, so let's get right into it!
The Greatest Showman came out over a year ago at this point, and I still listen to this song pretty frequently when I need inspiration. I think we've all been where the song puts us at one time or another, feeling out of place, ostracized, and not fitting in with the rest of the crowd. Feeling ashamed of who we are or that we somehow need to be different, that we need to change who we are for acceptance. I know I still feel like that a lot of the time, even as someone closer to the middle of their life than the beginning.
As a writer, I struggle with creating work that I want to write versus the things I think other people think I should write. As a working professional, I struggle to be my authentic self in an industry that prizes flashy shows of wealthy and fame and power. This is the kind of song I listen to when I need a little pick-me-up, a reminder that who I am is okay and that I don't need to pretend to be anyone else.
I'm convinced that songwriters Pasek & Paul, the geniuses behind this soundtrack as well as the phenomenal Dear Evan Hansen Broadway theater production, are going to have legendary careers. I mean, they kind of already have considering they're only 33 and 34, respectively, and have Oscars for their original songs on La La Land and Tonys for Dear Evan Hansen. They just have a way of tapping into those insidious feelings of inadequacy we all have and presenting a really inspiring, uplifting message about them.
On a side note, the thing I've always found funny about this movie is that almost all of the performers are treated like "freaks" because of various physical conditions... tons of tattoos, a bearded lady, gigantism, albinism, etc. And then you have Zendaya who sufferers from, what... pink hair? Is that the disadvantage she's trying to overcome? Is that what makes her an outcast in society? Hollywood casting beautiful people to play characters that are deeply physically flawed... the struggle is real. 
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Written for "The Soundtrack of Your Life"
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