That's hard news, even more since it triggers this hard time for you. I can't walk by a hospital without a knot in my guts,
because my parents went in and didn't come out.

Take all the time you need; I think everyone will understand. I hope that you're cleared soon by insurance and then find the right solution for you, and that it doesn't take too long to get used to it, and that it enhances your life quality, too.

Also probably write, like QueenNormaJean April snowsagin and H❀pe suggest – writing is a powerful healer when used well.